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Where You Said You'd Always Love Me (vent??)

Rikki-Kalloja

Published: Jul 25, 2015

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"do you not tell the truth at all?
Well if I ever cross your mind make sure you write down the times,
So I will know the moments I was eating you alive.

You are the itch that's on my back.
You are the gum under my shoe.
You are the horrors of my past.
You are the chill that haunts the room.
You are the creaking on my steps.
You are cancer. You are plague.
You are regret. You are disease.
I wish that you would go away."
www.youtube.com/watch?v=qbWgw4… :muisc:

Ahhh
Vent?? i dont know, i just want to talk about my feeling rn.

I've been in a few relationships last year. And I've been told "I love You" in a few.
But To be very honest, there were only 2 times i actually believe they meant it.
And those 2 times were my first relationship, and my last. I know i should feel bad for not believing the other times, but i just don't. I just couldn't. Its not like i didn't want to, it's just that i couldnt believe them. It felt so fake. I just can't trust a person who says the words "i love you" just as easily as saying "hi"
I wish i knew why i couldnt trust it, but i don't. Ahh this is hard talking about, i honesty hate talking about relationships i wasnt happy in.
But i have to admit that when i said "I love you" in between those 2 relationships. I tried to convince myself that i really did love the person, but maybe i didnt. Thats why i lost them all, but i never regretted loosing them. To be honest im so much happier. Im glad that the 2 people i loved back then are still my friends. I love them, but not in the same way as before, we've moved on, but its not like we hate each other, we're still friends.
But yeah. I wanted to talk more about that, but ill keep it to myself, and ill tell my friends if they want to know, but yehhh.

small update on me. I've been so fucking happy you guys. Like I dont understand. Ive fixed the things that needed to be fixed, such as apologizing to people. And the fact that they forgave me lifted all the weight and stress off my shoulders. I feel so much better now. Im not getting sad as often anymore, and im smiling more. Im talking to people that i didnt talk to that much, because i waisted my time talking to others that werent worth it.
And now i know who my true friends are. And im forever grateful for them. I just love you all!!

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KeyFrost

Jul 25, 2015

_{Glad to hear you're becoming happier. c:}